Dear Hessa

WOW.

I just went back to read some of the stuff you've been writing during October and November.

You was so motivated.

SHIT!!!!!!!

But I'll tell you one thing, stupid girl. 2010 is not over yet! You can still redeem yourself!!

There is a little more than 6 months left in the year. Push yourself. Make that change you want to see for yourself.

Don't lament over stupid shit then quit all together. Pick up the pieces and run! Fucking run!!

Oh, right and that marathon you want to run...you better start shaping up now missy!!!

Don't hide from me. This blog is gonna get you. Write write write. Vent. Then run, bike, spin, whatever!!!

Get out there and do it.

then come back in December and we'll talk.

Sincerely,

Your Blog.

Remorse, is it true?

I dont know how to start this.

I just ate a cheeseburger. yes a cheeseburger, that has been sitting in the fridge for 5 hours.

i just came back from a brutal work out at the gym around 10:30pm and decided not to eat it.

by 2:31am i had already chosen to consume this monstrosity and did so successfully.

i feel like the total opposite of success. I feel like i failed.

I go in and out of this cycle of torture.

I AM BATTLING AN ADDICTION!!

When i wanted that burger, I WANTED IT!!

I was blind. I just needed to have it.

Forget that i just sweated the equivalent of a 1/34th second of the entire Niagra Falls.

No. Just like the true carnivore that I am, opened that fridge and bit into it.

I smelled it first. It smelled so good. But i also thought of the repercussions. and i said "fuck it".

so i popped it in the microwave...





I really hate myself right now...

I'm gonna do this again soon. Please help me.



I'm a recovering foodahoic!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!