Big Girl On Board!

A sea plane is a hostile place for a big girl.

Have you ever faced the shame of a steward asking you if you need a seat belt extension? Well I have. Granted I didn't need it and I did manage to fasten the belt around my bulging bulge. However my delicate cotton Wild Fox t-shirt (thank goodness they make them oversized) didn't fair so well after the 40 minute flight. It was wrinkled within an inch of its life. There was nothing I could do to salvage it for the rest of the day. Maybe it's about time someone invented an 'on the go' iron or steamer, without the heat and in the form of a lint brush. It definitely is about damn time to trim off some inches from the two tiered muffin top I got baking! Ay yay ay.

Dear Hessa

WOW.

I just went back to read some of the stuff you've been writing during October and November.

You was so motivated.

SHIT!!!!!!!

But I'll tell you one thing, stupid girl. 2010 is not over yet! You can still redeem yourself!!

There is a little more than 6 months left in the year. Push yourself. Make that change you want to see for yourself.

Don't lament over stupid shit then quit all together. Pick up the pieces and run! Fucking run!!

Oh, right and that marathon you want to run...you better start shaping up now missy!!!

Don't hide from me. This blog is gonna get you. Write write write. Vent. Then run, bike, spin, whatever!!!

Get out there and do it.

then come back in December and we'll talk.

Sincerely,

Your Blog.

Remorse, is it true?

I dont know how to start this.

I just ate a cheeseburger. yes a cheeseburger, that has been sitting in the fridge for 5 hours.

i just came back from a brutal work out at the gym around 10:30pm and decided not to eat it.

by 2:31am i had already chosen to consume this monstrosity and did so successfully.

i feel like the total opposite of success. I feel like i failed.

I go in and out of this cycle of torture.

I AM BATTLING AN ADDICTION!!

When i wanted that burger, I WANTED IT!!

I was blind. I just needed to have it.

Forget that i just sweated the equivalent of a 1/34th second of the entire Niagra Falls.

No. Just like the true carnivore that I am, opened that fridge and bit into it.

I smelled it first. It smelled so good. But i also thought of the repercussions. and i said "fuck it".

so i popped it in the microwave...





I really hate myself right now...

I'm gonna do this again soon. Please help me.



I'm a recovering foodahoic!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Lethargy

Lately I haven't been feeling so well. I just don't do much of anything.

Yes I joined this awesome new gym but I only did it to secure my place. It's been 4 days and I didn't go work out yet. I'm feeling listless and gross. Like I always have trouble sleeping and then I don't want to wake up. I think it's because I have two assignments that I have to hand in but I'm so scared I just don't even want to finish either. I find any excuse to go online and discover anything else rather than focusing on this task.

I hate this me.

I want to be able to wake up refreshed and welcome the day! Not hide under the covers after a bazillion snoozes! I want to take early morning walks and breathe in the dew. I want everything to be alright and I want myself to believe that. I want to fold all the clothes in my dresser and organize my desk. I want to pick cherry blossoms out of a tree (ok that one i just saw in my dream) But most of all I want to be fit and healthy!! These symptoms are obviously coming from someone who isn't taking care of their body. Bottom line...

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I NEED TO GO TO THE GYM!!!!!!!!!

Falafel Day

One spring day, my good friend Nina took me to a falafel joint in Paris's 4th arrondissement. Right off Rue de Temple (yeah, that's the Jewish quarter) So anyway, besides the fact that the place was cramped and the waiters were h-o-t, I managed to scarf down an eggplant salad AND a falafel the size of both my hands. Life changing moment.

However, I hadn't tried a falafel sandwich since, fearing that I only liked it at the famed place with a line snaking down the street. So when my roomie walked in today with a bag from Zahrat Lebnan asking, "Who is hungry?" I leapt at the chance to eat cuz I hadn't had anything all day (tsk tsk I know). Lo and behold, she bought falafel. "Too late to change your mind", I thought, "Shouldn't have gotten over-excited." We sat down as we both unraveled the beige paper containing our vegetarian grub. The minute I saw a pickle inside the bread I knew it couldn't be that bad.

It wasn't.

It was delicious. Mouth-watering. Spicy. Tangy. Creamy. Crunchy. Smooth. Good to the last bite.

I thanked her tremendously and confessed to her my former apprehension at the announcement of our lunch. The tabouleh was o.k.

Around 7pm I find myself at the local mall scouring the food court, hoping a Subway would appear. Note to self: Abu Dhabi Mall has the only Subway. Not Khalidiyah. I descend to the Starbucks on the ground floor hoping to get a Venti decaf soy toffee nut latte, cuz afterall, 'tis the season to be jolly. I wanted a sandwich too, but the healthy selection was disappointing. It was a toss up between the wraps: Ceaser Chicken or yup you guessed it Falafel!!

Needless to say I bravely opted for the latter. And it didn't disappoint either.

Ladies and gentlemen, I LOVE Falafel. :)

Hi my name is...

...and I'm the Biggest Loser!!!

I've had my iPod touch for about 2 years now. However, I never really utilized it's full potential up until this week. You see, I bought the entire season 7 of the Biggest Loser off of iTunes and have been watching it...in the gym!!! Yeah, so basically I'm on the treadmill for 1h:23m and by the end of it I'd lose 750 calories without even thinking!! This plan is so awesome, I'd love to see it go wrong! Love to! But it won't inshalla!

Even if their weight loss on the ranch is so grand, I know this is not typical. So I've lost 11 pounds in two weeks and I'm satisfied. I just hope my upcoming trip won't ruin all the work I've done. Let's see of I can resist the Pizzas and Pastas of Italy...

a tout!! xx.

Working out

So it's been 2 days since I renewed my gym membership. I sleep better, I walk taller, but I ache, oh how I ache!! My body hurts all over but I know that this is all part of revving up the engine.

I am still finding ways to sit in front of my computer and type away when really, I should be heading out for another episode of the 'dreadmill'!

I wish for progress. I want to progress. I want to see good results by the end of this week.

I can not afford to slow down, or worse quit. I can not and will not let myself down.

This is a promise.

Now I will kick off my D&G sneakers, put on my Nike shoes, change my Lacoste shirt for a ho drum Disney one with holes in it (yes i over use shirts i love), re-work a playlist, update the i-pod, buy a bottle of water....and start heading to the gymnasium!!! Dum dum dummmm...